Even when I Feel Disconnected from God, He is Closer than Anything
Sometimes I don’t feel connected to God.
Like the channel between us is broken.
It feels like my prayers go as far as the walls in my room and then sink into them, never getting to Him.
I try to listen to Him, but I don’t hear any answers.
I read His word but I don’t feel inspired.
I ask, seek and knock but feel like nothing is changing.
I find myself asking Him:
Where are you God?
Why can’t I hear you?
Are you testing me?
Do you not care?
Am I being punished?
It’s easy to ask these things when we feel disconnected.
But I have to remind myself of the truth:
Just because I feel disconnected doesn’t mean I am.
Even though it feels like my prayers aren’t going anywhere, they are. God knew my prayers before I even prayed them.
Just because I’m not hearing any bold answers doesn’t mean He isn’t answering me. Maybe I’ve been too wrapped up in this world to hear Him.
Even though it feels like nothing is changing it doesn’t mean that’s true. He is always working for my good. But I can’t see the whole picture.
How we FEEL about God, and whether or not we FEEL connected to Him, never actually changes who He is.
Our emotions and feelings are fleeting and temporary- they do not dictate the truth of God.
He doesn’t move, He doesn’t change. He doesn’t suddenly stop communicating with us and ignore us.
Don’t let your feelings decide who God is.
He is still faithfully Himself and that will never change.
He still loves you.
He still has a plan.
He’ll never leave you.
He is closer than you know.
Your feelings can say what they want, but they don’t change Him.
~Kelli Bachara, The Unraveling Blog